Same old for me, Chinese food last night for dinner leads to major regret next morning. SO typical yet never going to break this habit, ever. It’s just too satisfying (and convenient) in the moment.
Early last week I found my housekeeper (Anna) in our bathroom, hysterically crying. I walked in to say goodbye and there she was, just sobbing uncontrollably in her own hands. I asked her what was wrong and it took her a minute to calm down and answer me. In very broken english she responded “my daughter”. I then asked if something had happened to her. Anna then began to explain that she doesn’t come to visit her anymore. From what I was able to gather, Anna’s daughter has a boyfriend with whom she spends most of her time with and an ex husband who is now threatening to stop helping her with rent. This obviously broke my heart and as I gave her a hug and walked out, I found myself taking on her emotions.
To give a little backstory on Anna, she is VERY chic and put together. She always has a fresh manicure and pedicure, a crisp polo on, and takes the bus twice a week to come to us. She’s probably fifty something and my guess is that she has been working for the past thirty years, cleaning various homes and establishments. She simply adores Baguette and Olive and I couldn’t be happier to have her.
The whole experience has really caused me to reflect on my current standing. First and foremost, I couldn’t imagine feeling as helpless as Anna did that day. I am somebody that is so unbelievably fortunate to have the love and support of so many amazing and genuine people around me (even if I don’t always let them know).
As of Recently I have found myself in a serious state of transition. Ending old relationships and beginning new ones. They say you shed every seven years and I believe this might just be my seventh year. It’s invigorating to pick and choose who you really want to spend your energy on. Not simply carrying on relationships with people JUST because you have known them for an extended period of time OR went to elementary school with them. Obviously change is always a little scary but I’m excited for the future. I have always had big plans for myself and focusing my energy on ensuring goals of mine come into fruition is MUCH more appealing then bullshitting around with people who aren’t on the same path.